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FIRE and/or DESIRE
Monday Oct. 31, 2011
Morning walk: 3C/37F, overcast, chilling north wind sprinkled with sprinkles; Gusta loved it but coming back (northbound) was an exercise is wet-face, refreshing and happily not snow-face.
Morning arrived somewhere, but not here, not yet. Night, like an over-holding tenant, hasn’t moved on yet . . . but soon.
I waked into this world, this morning, and realized I can have anything I want.
I could yesterday too, but didn’t see it as clearly. It was a mess of wish want will crave like yearn long covet, of wishing longing requesting lusting willing and wanting.
So can you.
Yes, we can.
Just ask.
I did.
I asked that my path to be no easier, but perhaps clearer – my way lit, a bit, so middle-aged eyes can find the way.
The world gave me an answer.
I can have whatever I want badly enough.
If I work hard enough for and care enough about it, I can make any dream come true.
The question – for most of us – is how to define that?
Is it about fire, or desire, or both?
I’ll take a stab at it:
DESIRE
That
construct-ive
force
or our own
undoing
joy or pain
delight or vain
wishing for fire
that doesn’t
expire
or conspire
yes, please
give me some
of that verb
or noun
which is it
that I
desire?
Boyish playfulness will be tested for certain, but I’ll find no better path than the one I’m on, it goes all the way to the end and possibly beyond I think because, if we do things really well, those things last longer than we do.
But I’ll have to keep pushing – from now till then, from here to there – if I intend to get myself there. Starting here. Starting now.
Welcome to a magnificent Monday.
Mark Kolke
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column written/ published from my residence in Cranston (SE Calgary) near the Bow River valley
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Whether it is students, family, friends, coworkers, or just an acquaintance, mistakes are seldom allowed to slip by. I have found that only the most sure of themselves can let someone’s mistake go left un-noted, and not draw attention to it. Usually the person that has made the most mistakes, the ones that have lived to the max, the best life, will accept many mistakes, with no need to draw attention. For they have lived fully and to do that they have made many. Those, the young, inexperienced, also those who live carefully, always fearful of their own mistakes, unconsciously wait for someone else to err, as it reinforces the fact that someone else is less than perfect. Maybe they hope to achieve that perfection, that so many of us once thought was important. I make mistakes daily. Too much doing, too much detail, too much talking, too much of everything for about 14 hours a day. I have been making more mistakes lately. Someone told me last week that you are probably not doing enough if you are not making mistakes. Being a bit of a perfectionist, I continually re-evaluate and analyze and I have recognized that it is not one of my goals any longer. But it is ingrained in my being after all these years, even though I try to control it. I find it disconcerting that I am making more mistakes. Do I do less, or do I continue to make mistakes? I need to do more, so I guess that limits my options, ST, Calgary, AB
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